Mood: Restless

Listening: Anti Gravity Tournament

2025
It’s definitely a year.

All of the business keeping me in Ireland is finally wrapped up, I have two whole weeks of gainful unemployment ahead of me before I move on.

Not sure what to do with two entire weeks off, I have a few hills I want to climb, a few places to visit, a few people to see, but nothing like two weeks’ worth of things to do. Maybe I should actually try taking a break? Sitting still makes me feel terrible though.

It’s a bit strange to think that this part of my life is at an end after so long, stranger still to think I’ve no idea what the next part is going to look like. I’ve no contacts where I’m going, no friends, no frame of reference, a whole new adventure, another chance to do well or to completely fuck things up.

The change will be good for me, whatever it ends up looking like, it will be horribly stressful in the short term, but it’s long overdue.
Life was becoming stale here.

I’m writing all this shit about intention this and living better that but I mostly end up going around in a loop doing the same 2 or 3 unsatisfying but easy things as soon as my routine gets disrupted, which it has been a lot recently.

I’m in the middle of packing my life away at the moment and most of it is getting left behind me here, hopefully when I get settled again I can structure things to avoid the pits I keep falling into here.

I feel good, a little exposed, but good.