Dipshit Immigrant Blues

Aug 5, 2025

Mood: Hell Yeah

Listening: Street Anthems

I think everything on this site is edgy, dumb, and kind of pathetic.

Ok you say, so what’s new?

Things are going pretty well, I’ve got a job, I’m settling in, all the big horrible decisions have been made, all the obvious bottomless pits leapt over.

I’m flourishing here.
I cannot remember life ever being better, it genuinely never has been better.

Friends, money, freedom, girlfriend, health, sanity, meaning, belonging.

But the thought’s there in the back of my head.
You’ll have to leave here sooner rather than later.
Always and forever in the back of my head.

Nobody’s saying I have to go back to where I came from though.
I can just do it all again.
‘Till I can’t.

It’ll be hard to do, this has been brutally hard, but it’ll be worth it.
Again and again and again.

Fuck the old life.
It wasn’t worth living.

In some ways I am definitely going in circles, professionally and fiscally being here is not good for me, but I don’t give a shit about those things anymore. Doing the smart thing, working a kustchy government job, plinking away at a fucking statistics degree was getting me nowhere, I’m done with it.

I make enough, my needs are simple enough, I’ve tightened my belt enough, I’ve got enough for now.

Right now and for the near future I have the material means to live a life I actually want to live. I’ll take another ten years of that over another 50 of grey, meaningless misery.

I’ve been picking at bits and pieces on some old drafts in the last few days but nothing of much value is coming of them so I probably won’t publish anything from them.

RIP in the trashbin of shame forever:

In the pipe:

Big list of things that I’ve done for the first time in between my last post and now:

Alright.
Bye.