Mood: Back and Bored Again

Listening: ば​り​好​い​コ​ン​ピ​3

Back at home after an extended roadtrip along the west coast and already I’m feeling shifty.

I saw a bunch of cool stuff and had quite a lot of fun but didn’t get to do everything I wanted to and I feel a bit bad about travelling around on my own. A lot of time alone with my own thoughts in the hills, feeling relaxed for the first time in ages but also feeling slightly more alienated than I usually do.

I guess I had an idealised version of this trip living in my head and the reality didn’t quite match up, I thought maybe I’d meet some people, like the last time I went off. But other than a brief conversation with someone on the beach on the 1st morning and picking up a questionably sane hitchhiker looking to go to deepest darkest Connemara one day I barely spoke to a soul all week.

I spend most of my time on my own, which feels good in the moment but I worry about the future. I did go on a date on Friday night but that was with someone I was already seeing, and I’m not sure what to make of them. You ever know something isn’t going to be practical long term, but keep it going just because there’s nothing there to replace it and it feels good in the moment? Yeah.